What a great new profile pic of you and your husband. He is obviously a rock in the storm for you. (I am also lucky to have the same from my husband.)
This is positively the worst time for you, making decisions and trusting that they are the right ones. Perhaps if you asked yourself what you would regret most NOT being allowed to have..? Like Viv (above) it would be harder not to have the choice in the first place. I would rather regret what I had done, rather than what I hadn't had done - if that makes sense. Whatever you choose, in a few months it will all be behind you.
Thinking of you, and knowing you will make the decision that is right for you.
Big hug. Love, Michelle xxx