Drawn Mastectomy

You need to spin that thought around to say she was a nurse with attitude!  Someone who was busy with the task at hand in preparation to make sure the surgery site was accurate.
I was in the holding bay when the Prof came in to assure me he was going to look after me and he wanted to know how I coped with the Sentinel Node Biopsy, which was the evening before.  I was first into surgery.  Once I was wheeled into surgery he started drawing.  Difference here for me, compared to what you had to say, is that he kept talking to me and reassuring me.
  
Attitude is a comment I have just read about the party that's being organised.

Try and spin it around otherwise you are going to drive yourself even more nutty!  Hope your next appointment with the Counsellor isn't too far away.

Take care

It is normal, my surgeon did it himself and discussed what he was doing. I think he knew just enough about me then (we know each other much better now!) to know that I welcomed knowing what was going on. He also advised that he was going to remove a small spot just above my breast as he thought it might be a skin cancer - it wasn't (benign neurofibroma) but I remember thinking that was pretty thorough!  I went to surgery very soon after diagnosis so there wasn't a lot of time for anything but attitude counts for a lot. How someone does something can impact as much as what they do. Bottom line, you don't need to carry this distressing memory - it's worth talking to a professional about how you can best let it go. Best wishes. 

I agree with @iserbrown, you need to chat to your counsellor about it. I tend to replay bits of surgery stuff in my head as well, but find it lessens over time. If you get stuck on one thing, having a chat to a professional is a good idea.

They should have told you long before that they were going to draw on you while you were awake. Slack.

Big hug Didi. K xox

I wish I was prepared for it. The stupid cow didn’t even talk to me or tell me anything.

Yes, they do that. It's rather confronting. I remember it very clearly--i went into theatre for my double mastectomy with a chest that looked like Hannibal Lecter has played tic Tac toe on it. :/

Yes this is normal.  If you watch any programs to do with surgery you will see this action taking place.
You have to ask yourself why is this bothering you now and perhaps discuss with your Counsellor.
Take care