Hi Shaza,
I can totally relate with you about losing your hair. I had very long hair when I was diagnosed and was devastated when I was told I would be needing chemo. I just couldn't image life without my beautiful hair. I was told by a few people that I should really cut my hair short before chemo as it will be excrutiating when it starts to fall out. I had a couple of inches taken off but couldn't go any shorter. I was very fortunate as it didn't hurt at all when my hair started to fall out. Once big chunks started to fall out (around day 15 after my first chemo) I decided to shave my head. It was the bizarre feeling and I didn't even cry. In fact I had some family come over and we all had a good laugh.
To be honest, the thought of losing my hair was far worse than actually losing it.
Sending you lots of love and strength and I'll be thinking of you on the 17th.
xxx