The Beacon - let down

Wowsers I feel I'm lucky to have such a great oncologist and breast care nurse who are all over this. I finished chemo in sept then bil mastectomies in November and my onc wants me still off work til end of March. I said I think I could go back in February - she just looked at me and I shut up!  I totally trust her judgement and kniw she's probably seen lots of people crash and burn by going back too early. My job is quite stressful and busy so I want to make sure I'm super strong and look more like the old me ( cept damn ugly hair of course) ( starting to curl a bit at back it looks like a mangy old cat) plus I work in a hospital so my onc says being a place of infection I need to be really right. 
I so get the hit by a bus thing. I feel so frustrated I can't go like I used to even on the good days. No more am I the ever ready bunny