@Sister I think our moods are in sync. I have been getting progressively angrier and grumpier all week. I'm now stomping round with a face like thunder. I'm furious at this f******g life derailment.
I am now furious that you've been left feeling robbed of an identity that is so deeply valued and treasured. You're fighting hard to be there for those who love you the most but it SUCKS ARSE that you have to give up so much of yourself to do it.
I love your dogged gumption and I love the RAGE that bursts out of you from time to time. The Force is strong in this one! Sounds like a boxing class might be just the thing when the time comes.
This morning I took my 15yo daughter to the doctor. Two issues, bad periods and unusual hair loss. The best solution for her period problems is to go on the Pill. But guess what? She can't because of the family history of breast cancer.
The GP then asked her if there'd been any stress in her life. Bless her, she said no. I then interjected, pulled off my cap and said, actually six months ago I was diagnosed etc, and gave a potted history of the last few years of cancer and upheaval as a result of cancer. The GP explained that stress can sync the natural life cycle of you hair follicles, so that instead of falling out at random, a couplecof months later they all fall out together. This fits the timelime of my poor, sensitive, darling daughter's hair problems perfectly.
It devastates me, cuts me to the very quick. I know it's not my 'fault' but it's made me feel so desperately sad and so deeply angry. Why does she have to suffer? Is it not enough that I have??
Thank you for your side effect free wishes. I know you're not into hugs so I'm smashing virtual plates into the ground for you. K