I miss my hair

Oh wow @MichelleR I totally can relate to everything you have said. I was absolutely devastated at loosing my hair as it was always such a big part of my appearance. I just want to look like me again. That said, my brows and lashes are back and my hair just looks like I have had a short haircut, but I just want it back. It’s at the difficult stage of being neither really short or long. Lots of people tell me how much short hair suits me and also ask if I will keep it short. I don’t know what I will do in the future, but I know I am going to grow it back and then, when I choose, I may go short again. As you know, the difference is, I get to choose how I want it to be. 
I know that everyone says it will come back, but the time waiting just seems so long. I monitor mine everyday. I am now 7 months on from chemo and no one would know I have had chemo, so it’s true, it does come back. When it got to a really short spike, I used a coloured rub in mousse which I loved at the time. At the 3 month mark, I got a gentle semi permanent colour put in. I know people say to embrace the greys etc and I agree with that too, but for me, it was all about getting ‘me’ back. 
I haven’t got much advice, just know I absolutely hear you, your hair is not a small thing - it is part of you and you miss it. Sometimes it is just plain exhausting trying to tell ourselves our hair is not important in the scheme of everything; it will come back; there are wigs etc etc. It’s ok to say we are not ok with it. Sending you a hug. M x