Sometimes I think maybe I should have died during treatment two years ago. At least I would be less of a burden to my family and they could get on with life. It's hard to give up the matriarch duties in a family and just exist.
I live on my veranda and just soak up the lovely views and wildlife and I do get pleasure from it. At least that entertainment doesn't cost me anything.
I really think we should lobby gov't to give us special permission to access the aged pension from age 55 as there is no way on earth I can hold down a job or train for a new one any more. I am still not deemed as disabled, even though I now have tachycardia heart troubles added to the list of conditions probably brought on 10 years early from breast cacner treatment.
The really hard part to take is before breast cancer, I had not been really sick or in hospital in my entire adult life, apart from bearing a couple of kids. I didn't even know you were supposed to swallow Panadol for goodness sakes! I was on no medication at all and thought you had to chew Panadol lol.