HIT - the wall

It's very frustrating @HIT

When I look back on how I was post  BC Version 1, I can't reconcile that picture with what life looks like post BC Version 2 . Within 12 months of V1, I was working full time, had been promoted, was breaking in a new horse and was back in the saddle (so to speak) in pretty much every aspect of my life. I really couldn't understand what all the fuss was about. Yes, I was having a lot of problems with the reconstructed tits and had several ops to try to fix the mess, but that made me more irritated than debilitated.

12 months after V2, I'm a wreck. I'm exhausted, struggling to work 3 hours a day and most days start much like you have described--tired, sore, achy, itchy and down in the dumps. I can drag myself up and go for a walk, do a yoga class or go to the gym but then I have to lie down. As far as doing anything challenging in the afternoon is concerned--forget it. My brain doesn't work and neither does my body--I'm a danger to myself and others. I generally won't answer the phone after 8 pm and if friends come to stay for the weekend I'm in bed by 9pm. Is this is my new normal? I. Am. Not. Impressed.

I have just switched from Letrazole to Anastrazole in the hope I might be one of the few people who benefit from the change, minimal as it is. I can't even be sure that the AIs are responsible for the misery, it's possible my body has just had enough. I've tried a variety of supplements and genuinely given getting better a go. Only time will tell, but this is a pretty ordinary way to live and I'm hoping it isn't a permanent condition. 

Worst of all, my sense of humour is deserting me--all that's left are the black bits and those are not always that amusing.