Hair Loss is not always temporary

@KatieT - I actually have to agree with you, even with hair growing back, I STILL feel like I am someone else, I look nothing like I used to and it is very very very hard to be thankful for being alive with the things you are left with to pick up the pieces and make a life with. I dont think there is any right or wrong with how anyone feels...I think we all have earned the right. The HARDEST and most psychological thing I have found having had Breast Cancer twice in 5yrs is....I was NEVER sick at all, I had no symptoms, no lumps no nothing. LUCKY????!!!! I was told to be caught early both times. So you find yourself being treated with their treatments for something you haven't seen, felt or been unwell with...but there I was having to accept it all twice..YIKES!!!! 

I have no problem about being honest anymore about the entire thing, I am grateful to be here of course....BUT its complicated isnt it?? because it was the treatment that made me very ill and look the way I do now...not the Breast Cancer. So its a double edged sword??!!! 

One thing I learnt through my 2nd diagnosis was.....everyone saying 'YOU have to do it for your KIDS"!!!! Ummm NO I DON'T.. and you know why??? because I realized something quite profound. If I couldnt do the treatment for ME and ME ALONE, I sure as hell couldn't do it for anyone else. Selfish??? NOT ONE BIT! Because for the first time in my life I was HONORING ME. As Women we put ourselves last in every aspect, we are nurturers and I wouldnt change that, I love my kids...but this was about ME nobody else...

I really hope you find some great tips or direction and help with it. Hugs Melinda xo