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KatieT
9 years agoMember
Better to be alive with hair than alive without hair - this didn't have to happen.
I have almost no eyebrows and eyelashes. There are a few faint hairs that aren't visible but when you look very close you can see them. Maybe they will improve.
I have not yet worked out whether it's better to be alive with no hair than dead. I guess each person has a different potential to adapt to their new circumstances. I don't know who I am any more but I'm not the capable, smart, professional person I thought I was. I'm someone else, someone who looks sick and dull and will probably do forever. There's no moving on when your hair doesn't grow back. You never get past looking like an unwell person. I don't want my hair for the world. I want it because it's part of me and part of who I am. As I move past the treatment stage and see all the other breast cancer patients I recognised at the hospital getting better, growing their hair back and regaining their life, I still look horrible. I get the consoling platitudes about how it's better to be like this than dead. Other people in this situation don't that say though.
I am quietly wondering if I was overdosed. I had terrible burns, terrible skin symptoms and now alopecia which is looking permanent to an unknown degree. Did they give me too much?
Thanks for your good wishes. I am hoping things improve.
I have almost no eyebrows and eyelashes. There are a few faint hairs that aren't visible but when you look very close you can see them. Maybe they will improve.
I have not yet worked out whether it's better to be alive with no hair than dead. I guess each person has a different potential to adapt to their new circumstances. I don't know who I am any more but I'm not the capable, smart, professional person I thought I was. I'm someone else, someone who looks sick and dull and will probably do forever. There's no moving on when your hair doesn't grow back. You never get past looking like an unwell person. I don't want my hair for the world. I want it because it's part of me and part of who I am. As I move past the treatment stage and see all the other breast cancer patients I recognised at the hospital getting better, growing their hair back and regaining their life, I still look horrible. I get the consoling platitudes about how it's better to be like this than dead. Other people in this situation don't that say though.
I am quietly wondering if I was overdosed. I had terrible burns, terrible skin symptoms and now alopecia which is looking permanent to an unknown degree. Did they give me too much?
Thanks for your good wishes. I am hoping things improve.