Just hang in there beautiful. I know how cliche it will sound but this will all be over before you know it. I know right now it doesn't feel that way but just hang in there. The tears are normal, the fear is real, it sucks so bad that we have to go through this. The first time is usually the worst because of the unexpected and uncertainty and fear. Take deep breaths, you will find the oncology staff and other patients very kind and helpful. You take it one step at a time, one chemo at a time and just think, after today you can say yes, first chemo done and dusted! Big big hug xxx