Thanks Millie, you sound very wise and your thoughts resonate with me, I do need to walk, drive and live the best life I can too, really appreciate that you put that perspective on it...starting to feel more relaxed with the idea that the next round might be too much for my body and it's telling my stubborn brain it really has had enough...Something has finally clicked that all the uncertainties make navigating a truly right course impossible and I need to factor that in, thankyou:)