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Zoffiel
7 years agoMember
It's taken me two years to stop gibbering when I get tired or nervous. Really quite embarrassing to get half way through a sentence and have to revert to interpretive dance because I couldn't find the right words or the wrong ones come out or I've forgotten entirely what I was trying to say. I still get muddled up occasionally, but I've learned to stop, take a deep breath, a small pause and resume. I bungled a couple of job interviews and spent too much time sobbing in the car because I felt like a complete fool.
The thing that is really bugging me now is my spelling. TF for spell check, but if I have to write something by hand I can end up with an illegible scrawl.
It really is a 'thing'. Some are worse affected than others and recovery time seems to vary wildly.
Like many chemo side effects, the improvement can be so slow and incremental that you don't realise you are getting better/speaking more clearly/moving more freely until it dawns that a whole week has gone by without being mortified or crippled by mysterious pains. I'm pretty sure the hormone treatments don't help, but there's not much that can be done about that. Mxx
The thing that is really bugging me now is my spelling. TF for spell check, but if I have to write something by hand I can end up with an illegible scrawl.
It really is a 'thing'. Some are worse affected than others and recovery time seems to vary wildly.
Like many chemo side effects, the improvement can be so slow and incremental that you don't realise you are getting better/speaking more clearly/moving more freely until it dawns that a whole week has gone by without being mortified or crippled by mysterious pains. I'm pretty sure the hormone treatments don't help, but there's not much that can be done about that. Mxx