Chemo 1st one down what a ride

ddon said:

Many times throughout the AC I despaired of getting through it and I didn’t suffer anywhere near as much as some. It’s a misery that you just can’t describe and just after my last I had a nightmare where I was told I needed one more. I was devastated in my dream. I have had my 9th paclitaxel and coping much better. It’s still chemo but having it weekly just means the side effects are still there but muted and tolerable. It’s a tough gig having chemo and no one around you can really enter in unless they have experienced it. And AC is not your average chemo either. If you look it up it’s one of the most vicious available - probably one of the most effective also which is why we sit there and let someone infuse it into our veins. I would get so down on day 4 and 5 that I would have a tear - filled melt down, mostly alone because I didn’t want to upset my kids or husband, but by day 7,8 I was able to see the end in sight again. 

I feel for you so much. Hang in there because it will end one day. Xx