Rant away @Berchel14 This whole thing sucks and is bad enough without having the horrible extreme side effects. I had nearly every side effect, even the unusual ones, but only a couple were extreme. Most were mild and I only ended up in hospital three times and ended up going home within 24 hours each time. After it is finished, you will realise it was worth it, but during treatment it is hard to see the finish line. Hang in there and come here every time you want to. I lived in this forum during AC-T and found new friends that understand. Sending big hugs to get you through this grotty time.