Hi Klea, so sorry to meet you under these circumstances, and welcome to this wonderful site. There is a lot if info available through the BCNA that might help you as you embark upon this new direction in your life. There is an information pack called Hopes and Hurdles which you can order free of charge from this site, which will give you support and relevant information. Also please use this online blog site to ask questions, and vent your anger. You will find wonderful support here from women who have been through or going through breast cancer treatment and will really understand exactly what you are feeling. Good luck with everything. Love Chris xx