Here Goes

@kmakm I could tell she was being a gatekeeper. She said she would call me back after talking to surgeon about my  inplannon rod. Thankfully I made contact with the other BCN and she is working at the Surgeons Office on Wednesday. She is going to ask about the rod on my behalf. She is also going to make contact with me on the day of my surgery next week.

@kiwi_angel I think I've cried enough tears for now. I keep a pretty private life because of my anxiety with work being my only real contact with the outside world. I felt guilty for not going to work, then the worry about finances become overwhelming but I know I just have to take things one day at a time.

@soldiercrab Ive emailed my super company to see if they can give me any information on accessing my income protection. Its not a lot of money only $950 a month as I only work part time, but it would be a relief to know I can access it if I do get too sick with treatment.

@zoffiel Thank you for the information about the Cancer Centre in Albury. I had no idea it was totally private. A relief that radiotherapy is bulk billed. My surgeon is a Breast Cancer surgeon as well as bowel cancer. Speaking with colleagues who have dealt with him they were all very impressed. Just a query. Is the radiation therapy done at the CC or in another part of the Albury Base? My Surgeon is treating me as a public patient and doing so has still managed to get me into surgery within 2 weeks of seeing him. Is the oncology team only from the Cancer Centre?  These are questions I will probably ask my BCN. Its the fear of the unknown that leaves me shaking. I am one of those people who will drive somewhere the day before just so there are no surprises when I attend the next day. This insane need to know every step in advance is my enemy in everyday life and will be now too. I am even sitting down now working out budgets if I am unable to work at some stage.

@iserbrown Thank you for those links. Am reading as much as I can but struggling to focus the past couple of days. My usual escape is burying my nose in the Outlander Novels. I think I have read the last 2 pages 3 times. Which isn't all bad as those who know the Outlander Series, you can never get too much of Jamie Fraser ;P

@kezmusic Thank you so much for your kind words. I have to try and keep calm until the results from my surgery are back. I expected everything to following suit within days, eg radiotherapy etc. I have this feeling that I want this thing growing in me out now and zapped now! But I forget its probably been there awhile and when I didn't know what it was I was calm.

So I got online on the weekend and site in Australia called Plus Sized Bras and decided to spoil Thelma and Louise. Hoping the size I ordered fits. Thelma and Louise are so big I have never really had good fitting bras and I have permanent dents in my shoulders. I wont ever be getting wired bras again and have found some lovely non wired, front opening bras. I got an email to say they were dispatched today.

We've decided to call my lump Brad Pitt (or Brad Titt?). Brad will only have a week now snuggled with Louise then he is being evicted!

Thank you all for your support and advice