thank you @Kiwi Angel and @soldiercrab. the Breast Care nurse organised the My Journey Pack for me and it arrived on Friday. I have been reading reading reading. I do live alone with both of my children living in Melbourne but I have an incredible amount of support from my work friends. and other local friends. I feel blessed in that way. Asking for help is another thing. stubborn? Even though I live in Vic (Wodonga) my treatment will be just over the border in Albury. We have a fantastic new Cancer Centre there. So again I am blessed as to not to have to travel far. Thank you for making me feel so welcome.