Wish the rollercoaster would slow down

Will definately be discussing better/other sedative options with radiation oncologist. I try and get the yoga breathing happening and just recite positive affirmations over and over in my head. They have the best play lists ever - one of the radiation techs constantly makes them so a big selection. It all helps. Thanks everyone for your kind words and support! Here is pic of my mask I get locked into - it was made to fit my face so a very snug fit! At least the making process wasn't too bad, it's a warm soft material placed on my face that actually felt a bit like a facial until it cooled on my face and turned into hard plastic type stuff!