Hello @Leni162
I am sorry to hear that you cancer has spread and that you are struggling presently. As said above, reach out for some support, don't hesitate to call our helpline to speak with a cancer nurse. It can help to talk things over and for some guidance regarding your concerns. You may like to join the private 'Living with metastatic breast cancer' group here in the online network, its a very supportive group to connect with as well. It may be helpful to make another oncology appointment to discuss some of your concerns regarding your treatment regime as this is causing you much distress, do you have a chemo nurse or breast care nurse that you can contact? Take care of you, all the best