Today’s Mood: cranky with a touch of psycho

I think you’re right @Sarnicad, it is normal parenting to a large extent. I think the thing is, because I am not certain of being around to see them grow up, or even finish primary school, I feel extra pressure to help them become independent and capable of good judgment and sound decision making. I need to know they’ll be totally fine without me otherwise I will have failed them. They need to be strong enough to cope with losing a parent at a young age. I want them to remember their childhood as happy, but I suspect they’ll just think Mummy was psychopath who yelled a lot.