These Oncologists need a lesson in stress management of their bc patients. They have no idea how confronting a diagnosis is then to have to wait for results, treatment etc is just too much. Do you have any physical supports in the way of family/friends. Once you have your plan you will feel so much more settled. in the meantime, try and do all the things that make you feel happy and give you joy. I was having my portacath flushed yesterday (it has not been used since June 2011 when I completed chemo for secondaries) and there was a female patient there receiving her chemo. I thought how peaceful she was. You will be the same and you will take the "time out" as a blessing. It sounds weird but I found so much caring and peacefulness during my active treatment. I send you best wishes to be able to find the inner strength to relax in the waiting game. XLeonie