@Sam09. It's a pity that we can't just give ourselves a good talking to and pull our act together. Sadly, it's not that simple.
Mental health is just like any other aspect of our wellbeing. World class sports people can break a leg. Noble prize winners have strokes and suffer Alzheimers. Any of us can go from exceptional functionality in any aspect of our lives to being completely lost because the skills we were used to, and sometimes took for granted, have deserted us. It's a rare person who has this happen who doesn't grieve for their past life.
Sometimes things get better, sometimes they don't. I wish that I could say that getting help will solve the problem, but you don't know until you try. It will either help, or add another item to the list of things that really gave you the irrits and cost money that would have been better spent on wine :)
