@Kat09 I'm so very sorry to hear you have also lost your child, the worst thing people can say to you is that God only gives you what you can handle. The fact you're still alive doesn't mean you've handled it but had to live with it & it's heartbreaking. Yes you always are thinking 'what next' & now one of the lovely ladies in the UK who drove us around has passed away from ovarian cancer. The other is fighting for life after a heart attack, as you wisely say we have to concentrate on the positives in our lives to keep going. I'll follow your battle & hope there is something I can say that will help you along. xo