hi Tilly, I hope that the treatment goes well today. Once you get through the next few days you will hopefully have a little more confidence about what this chemo will be all about and you will settle into a routine. Starting the first dose is always very scary. Make sure you let your chemo nurses know that you are feeling really anxious. They can be a great support. Ask them about what resources are available to you at the hospital. There might be a counsellor that you could meet with and talk through some of the feelings you are experiencing, especially about your worries around your daughter.
Best wishes
Danielle