I'm hearing exactly what you're saying. Somethings are helpful, others not so much. I'm the same with my story, I've pretty much locked myself away because I just don't want to go through the same thing 100 times, it's just to emotionally draining. I think I probably need to see a psychologist but I guess to do that you need to leave te house. Like I said, I'm working on it. Keep in touch, either through here or on Facebook and I'm sure we can keep each other laughing. It's very hard for people who don't have mets to understand what we are going through . I get pretty frustrated sometimes and it takes a lot not to lash out. I just try to keep smiling. Deb xx