Hi Donna,
The shock of that secondary diagnosis is devastating and takes a long time to come to terms with.
This certainly is the place to let it all out. We're all going through something with our diagnosis and support comes in many ways. It's a tough road we travel but with support from family, friends and sites like this can all help us cope and share knowledge and experiences. Don't be frightened to ask for help. I've been living with secondaries for nearly 11 years so hopefully that will give you hope that you too can live for a long time.
If your pain is unbearable perhaps it's time to ask your GP for something stronger.
All the best, Maggie