Thanks heaps now I have to say my friend came back later in the afternoon. She was busy and I am very lucky to have her and she came back to see me. I think it might have been a bit scary for her to see me laid up in bed and in pain. I've also got to try and lift my confidence where I can. I know it's not always going to be easy but I've got to try. Maybe I can reduce the dosage or split the pill like someone shared on this forum. Looking closer into what bcna offers I'm definitely going to become more involved in attending support groups and their events. I don't want to die yet. Thanks bcna.