Hi @Not_good_63_57
Sorry you had to join this group. Please remember that we have the best healthcare system and the latest medications in the world. When I was diagnosed, I really struggled as well. I asked Cancer Connect if they could put me in touch with someone who had a similar diagnosis. After I spoke to my connect friend, I realised that there are many on a similar path as mine and they are still going strong and living productive lives.
Please make contact with a psychologist if you feel that would help. I have over time used many different relaxation techniques such as meditation and tapping to calm my mind. Sending you my virtual support and hugs.