Hi Kate , I know what it is like to be so anxious. Sometimes when I see my oncologist and I'm feeling anxious thinking that it will be bad news, the reverse happens and its good news. Now after having mets for five years I am usually glad to find out results of scans and test even if the news is not always good. There is always treatment available . It just another challenge we all have to face and we seem to find the strength in the end. Have you got a friend that can go with you. My husband usually comes with me as he is now retired., but when he was working I would ask a friend or a family member. I read this once , :) Always Remember
You are braver than you believe,
Stronger than you seem,
Smarter than you think,
And twice as beautiful as you have ever imagined.
Good luck you can do it .