Ephima, so sorry to hear of your journey this far!! I agree there are no guarantees for any of us, all we can do is make the right decisions at the right time for ourselves. You've done exactly that, Ive had a recurrence but am 1yr post chemo and fine, just mastectomy to go as precaution now, but I guess its that thing where sometimes you feel damned if you do damned if you don't. I was really angry at my recurrence after doing aggressive treatment and it still came back 4yrs later. One thing I know, there is NO RHYME OR REASON, and there definitely is nothing that you do or eat or not eat that contributes, it also doesnt discriminate. I love your attitude!! Lets make every single minute count!!!! All of us!!!! I had FEC and Taxol, I wouldnt say it gets better unfortunately, but its doable! and I so agree with you, I know for me its not about quantity its the quality! So hang in there!!! Hugs Melinda xo