Mazzi just to let you know that I find each new concern, often expressed as, 'we're interested in .........', just that bit harder to take in. Although I use zany and often dark humour there are times when it doesn't work and I find it difficult to 'push through'. I've learned it best to let myself feel the anxiety, a bit like finding a quiet corner and settling into the reality, maybe read or knit, but I don't answer my phone. As I write this I'm thinking of how sick animals retreat and curl up. Some wisdom in that. Trust you are sleeping well and indulging yourself in some way. Thanks to BCNA we are never alone. xBeryl