Hi @Cate64, I bet every single one of us on this forum has days just like yours.
I posted something similar over the weekend about a lady who was concerned about her Mum's tumour markers increasing.
Essentially I spoke about mine fluctuating to a high of around 900 last January to a "low" of mid 60's in May (following radiotherapy and start of adjuvant treatment exemestane & everolimus). This went up a little to 75 in August however I was pretty shocked when I went back in November and it had doubled to 140 !
My oncologist assured me that she looks at it from an holistic viewpoint. How I look, how well I feel, pain under control in addition with all the other results from the bloods - everything else was "in the black" - good results.
I see my oncologist next Monday and so I am now on the countdown and approaching the appointment with fear and trepidation.
You have shared some of your amazing achievements with us when you feel like a warrior, feel so well and can conquer the world and then something like this comes along and completely sets you back. It knocks the wind out of your sails.
We have all been here before and that's why we go on the forum to give a shout out and say "I'm not having a good day today". No need to apoligise for venting - you are not doing that - just sharing your fears as you don't want to worry your family.
Big hugs to you xx
Sheryl