Finding a new kind of normal

WTF !! After reading your post I feel I have no idea what to say. I was always under the impression you would have some idea if you have a recurrence, I saw my oncol on Monday, my bloods were all fine, tumor markers all fine etched was happy with me and didn't want to send me for any scans etc and I have the osteo type pain from the menopause caused from the chemo, but am now shit scared its more than that after reading what you wrote,  I feel for you Tennille, and I hope you get the trial meds. I think we all struggle with the new normal, but you my love have to stay strong and positive you have a team around you that will help you through it and I cant imagine what its like but hang in there lovey we are all here for you. Margie :)