@Marianne63
Goodness you are so NORMAL!!!! I think you wouldnt be human if you didnt have those moments, and it does make it hard as I also have learnt that unless you are traveling this path, you cannot fully understand the complexities of it. It is physical, it is emotional it is incredibly mental and requires every ounce of us. I too have moments like you and they knock you for a six where the frustration, anger and sadness do take its toll. Then you seem to make your way through it only to face the next thing...or maybe you wont, as in things are peaceful. There is no right or wrong, that I have learnt and the Psychologist said at a rehab course I did, that allowing yourself to feel everything is actually healthy and enables you to acknowledge it and move through it. Its damn hard!!! absolutely!!!! we fall, we get up, and keep doing it but how amazing are we really??? Youre doing well!!! and I agree, when you feel you are ready, begin a new chapter of your life with another kitty to love...xo Hugs Melinda xo