Thanks for the advice. Yes I'm thinking of getting another cat in the new year. I have noticed that when I was first diagnosed with the mets I was very strong. I wouldn't let anything get me down but yes Afraser as you said that now I know I'm getting better (went to see dr yesterday and the tumour markers are coming down and I'm due for another scan next month) the depression has been getting worse. Thinking that having gone through this for the third time will it come back again. That is my greatest fear. Going through it three times....can I handle it coming back again......hopefully not...as they say three times lucky......