Chemo over - where's the party feeling??
Morning All
Just putting my feelings/observations into words to people that will understand. I had my last chemo last week.....everyone around me wanted to celebrate, have a party etc - "well now ...
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I wish I could wave a magic turtle wand right now and make it all just bugger off!!!
I wish I could tell you how it will be in the future for you.. But it is no roadmap for this one.
Treatment unfortunately keeps it in our faces all to easily :( and all those what if questions will only be answered in time..
The aim is to live your life and have an awesome time and deal with the tests treatments as they arrive at your door. (it is pre test that is the trickiest time - argh... the 'what if syndrome' - lurking little critter it is) I am hoping that for a very VERY long time that your tests continue to show only that one tiny little spot and stable is a word you associate with easily.
Do we ever become used to it.. I think we actually do - sort of yes/no. Can it move to the back of our minds? yes indeed. Can it race back to be front and center? unfortunately yes.. (and it is OK when you have a crap day and hate the world - it is a very normal and pretty necessary part of working through this diagnosis)
The balance of how each of us do this.. I swear it needs a Masters Degree sometimes and other days it is easy as LOL.
I suppose the main thing is that going through all of this there is now officially a 'new normal' and it is ok. Be kind to you and take it from there.
enough turtle rambling from me!!!!
I hope your Melbourne adventure is awesome.. and ummm pack a dress, jumper, shorts, jeans and coat.. we are truly living up to our reputation down here right now..
Cheers, Sharon xoxoxox