Am I dying and no one has told me?

Hey Sam, we are all dying a little bit each day as that is what makes us mortal. Sometimes it is sped up, sometimes it gets slowed down and sometimes in horrific accidents it just gets stopped altogether. Having mets just means you are a high maintenance girl now and there are some extra benefits you can get being on palliative care so look in to those. Its a bummer when you can't sleep but you feel like you could for 1000 years. I know that feeling. What is your mattress like? I got one of those plush pillow top mattress covers (not cheap) and it has been pretty good. Well, better than nothing. I hope your treatment of pain gets under control. Sometimes it takes a little bit of trial and error to find out just which one suits your body, or as in my dads case, a combination of a few of them. Get on to that doctor and keep on asking for better. I am a great believer in the power of vitamin C too and make sure you take them every day. Hugz <3