TNBC

@Avagomum  Hi and welcome to this forum.  It is a great place on those days when your spirit needs lifting, or just to ask questions from people who just get it and have been there before you and understand what you are going through.  As you will see there is a lot of humour and laughs along the way. ( God who would have thought you would get that on a Breast cancer forum hey. )  Like yourself I am one of those 15 % who have TNBC  and I can totally relate to what you are saying.  I think once you are going through active treatment you just concentrate on that bloody big mountain we all have to climb but once we get to the top it's like " Shit I've got here, What now "    So many of us on this forum worry about recurrence and I also know too well the statistics for TNBC but those thoughts do get better with time.  I think once you finish your treatment also seems to be the time you take a deep breath and take time for reflection on what you have gone through and also seems to be when those pesky little bubbles of "What if " pop up .  So many of our friends and family are like "great its all finished now" but its not and never will be. There is no easy answer but try to live life.. One of the lovely members on here mentioned she downloaded the "Insight" app and I did the same thing and absolutely love it for those bad days when you need some quiet meditation. I also have thrown myself onto my exercise bike each day ( not a pretty sight ) and have been out fishing another big passion. I think the trick is to take one small step at a time.  Enjoy the small things like, I love it at night when the fireflies are outside my bedroom window and the moon is coming up, I also love smelling my Frangipani tree before I walk into my house.    It's the little things one day at a time.   big hugs to you. xo