The Secret Suckiness Of Life After Breast Cancer
https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/2017/10/176194/life-after-breast-cancer-survivor-story?
Forum Discussion
As I’m still having herceptin (3 or 4 to go) I’m not quite after BC but many of your thoughts resonate with me. I struggle with the idea that I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop, that I won’t really be “cured” at the end of all this gruelling treatment, that I’m not done with scans, tests and other, that they will be with me forever, that there is never going to be a day where I can forget about this shitty disease. Any time I think about another biopsy I cry because they never seem to give me enough local in the relevant areas and both have hurt like all stink.
Im back at work, going like a mad woman - somehow managed to work 71.5 hours in 8 days when I’m only meant to work 72 in 9 work helps me feel normal but should I be doing so much is this what got me into trouble in the first place? More unknown answers to incomplete questions!
I resent not having outside support, haven’t found a bc support group, have only seen reconstruction groups and I (my words) only had a lumpectomy- mind you they took a fair divet, but not a full lopping so often feel like a fraud amongst those who have had worse treatment or diagnosis
id be able to retire if I had a $ for every time someone told me how well I look when I actually feel shit - today I’d have made $5 alone
reading all this I guess it is time for another visit to the head shrinker
Im back at work, going like a mad woman - somehow managed to work 71.5 hours in 8 days when I’m only meant to work 72 in 9 work helps me feel normal but should I be doing so much is this what got me into trouble in the first place? More unknown answers to incomplete questions!
I resent not having outside support, haven’t found a bc support group, have only seen reconstruction groups and I (my words) only had a lumpectomy- mind you they took a fair divet, but not a full lopping so often feel like a fraud amongst those who have had worse treatment or diagnosis
id be able to retire if I had a $ for every time someone told me how well I look when I actually feel shit - today I’d have made $5 alone
reading all this I guess it is time for another visit to the head shrinker