Thanks everyone, so nice to have understanding, to realise you are not the only one that has had these feelings and to feel comfortable to be able to share.
@Rosie9740 I am about to get back to counselling to help me manage how I am feeling. I can remember so well thinking I wouldn't ever make it to the end of treatment and now here I am!
@Brenda5 I hear you! The first hair cut was a great day and yes managing to do my own buttons up was a big day too, my neuropathy has been quite bad lots of fumbling and trips etc so it is a good day when you realise perhaps things look a little brighter and you can manage on your own! 7 years post treatment gives me a huge amount of hope and I understand the scan side of things too when you read it laid out like that. My onc did say the expectation is you just go off and live your life, so in that respect unless there are symptoms it makes sense not to scan.
It is such a head game isn't it and I am sure in time I will figure out who I am these days. @Afraser you always seem to know what to say to sum it all up, thank you xx
