Thankfully I know more this time.

Fight or flight response? Really going back and forth with this this morning. For the first time since being told I would need a biopsy I have had tears. Mostly because a couple of friends have sent me lovely messages. It is their kindness that gets the emotions going. There is a very real feeling of just wanting to run away to somewhere pleasant and pretend that all is good.

But I know that we need to know what this is so informed decisions can be made. Unfortunately my biopsy is not until 3 this afternoon and then of course there will be the waiting for results. There are both advantages and disadvantages to knowing more this time. I know what to expect as far as the procedures and waiting times are concerned but I also know way more about breast cancer. It is hard to stop the mind from getting ahead.

So I have downloaded a really good book and hope to distract myself with that today in between getting super organized for what I have to do for the next few days as I know my mind will not be good at concentrating for too long! Oh, and concentrating on breathing really does help when the emotions threaten to take over.  :|

Hi @Deanne, just catching up on this. Sorry to hear that you have this hanging over you. I'll have you in my thoughts until I hear your results

Thank-you @June1952 and @Ahnn <3 . It means so much to read your messages tonight. Tomorrow is a step closer to at least finding out what this is. 

@Deanne all the best for your results.  I hope your gut feeling is right and erring on the side of caution. Fingers crossed you can breathe easy

Hello @Deanne
Just to let you know that you will be in our thoughts tomorrow.  All the best.

Thank-you to everyone for their responses and good wishes. I am managing to keep myself from leaping too far ahead (although I guess the mastectomy could be regarded as a big leap, but it’s something that it’s natural to have given thought to going through what we do). I am just concentrating on getting through the biopsy next Monday and hopefully not having to wait too long for results. 

Deanne said:

So, 7 and a bit years after a Stage 3 E+ PR+ breast cancer diagnosis in the left breast, I am facing some changes in the right breast. Picked up in yearly mammogram/ultrasound. Nobody has suggested it is cancer just yet but given my history I am booked in for a core biopsy next Monday.

I am very clear in my head about what this means for me. I have been happy with my choice of single mastectomy for the last 7 years but am not about to take any chances with the remaining breast. Regardless of the results of the biopsy, it’s days are numbered. Monitoring changes in a very dense breast is not what I want. Having had a mastectomy I am quite ok about having a second one, especially if that is all I need. The changes are new since my mammogram and ultrasound last year. 

Just goes to show that keeping up our regular checks is sooo important, even in our current Covid 19 world. 

Very reassured by the excellent treatment of my situation by the staff at the Radiology facility this morning. I was treated respectfully and everything was clearly explained right then and there.

As you can imagine though, I am finding it hard to concentrate on anything else at the moment. Will be glad when the biopsy is done and we have the results. But I am sure that a mastectomy is what I want regardless. 

Morning Sending hugs for a good result xx

All the best wishes

I do hope the results are good, @deanne - can totally understand where you're coming from with the decision.