Thank you for your thoughts @Anne65. No despair here. At the moment anyway!
I've really struggled with the whole 'not the same as before' thing. Honestly it's still a work in progress, but I have shifted a tiny bit towards acceptance. This of course is a grieving, and grief is difficult and uncomfortable. I think I'll always be sad. Too much has been taken with all the cancer in my life. That's grief though. You don't really get 'over' it, it just becomes part of your life.
I set my intention when I meditate and one of the words I use is acceptance. I am still deeply resentful but that's farting against thunder, so I'm actively trying not to go there.
I feel so sorry for my husband who's now saddled with a shadow of his former wife. 'In sickness' eh?
How are you doing? K xox