@Barks34 ... I don’t think the mental anguish ever really goes completely, but I am only 2 years in myself, so not an authority on the subject. You’ve had your fair share of surgery, treatment and side effects .... and being bullied whilst working thru your treatment as well ... is intolerable. You have done well under difficult circumstances. Xx
If you are feeling stressed and ‘down’ between your appointments, give the helpline here a call ... 1800500258 and chat with them about copin* mechanisms.
@Brenda5 mentioned a holiday .... have you contacted the Otis Foundation to see if there is a retreat that you may visit? Take the kids and have a break in a new area.
https://www.otisfoundation.org.au/directoryAll the best xxx