Dear @Barks34
I think your GP, locum or not, might consider a referral for some psychological advice and support. A cancer diagnosis, even in the best of circumstances, can mess with your head. You sound like you have far too much to carry right now and need some advice on how to deal with your treatment on top of a lot of work and family issues. Prioritising in these circumstances is never easy but needs to be done. When you feel at the end of your tether, everything is worse. You need some assistance in breaking that cycle of mental pain. Cancer has a nasty habit of revitalising old problems and wounds. Think of physical wounds - you’d want a doctor, antiseptic, bandages. Your mind and spirit need something similar too. Best wishes.