No comfort
I dont know why im writing this other than i need to express it and i cant think where else. Before bc i used to talk about stuff i was gunna do but i never seemed to get around to it. I had a life...
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Hi @iserbrown,
I think it is really too early to tell some stuff.
For example i went back to work part time to see what i thought about it. I dont currently see it as lack of passion or drive but more work is in the place it should be. The culture of my workplace is another thing. I work in a male dominated probably old style environment and i knew even before bc that it wasnt a 100% good fit. I just dont know if current me really finds it a problem. I do work, they pay me and in between i dont really think much about it. This is very different to old me who worked 50+ hours a week, felt responsible for everything and wanted to do well.
There are some kid things going on and change is needed. Its causing me stress because old roles may not fit but they are still hard to shake off.
Im just not really sure who i am right now.
I may reach out to my life coach as i trust her. But although she is aware of my journey im not even sure she fits in the same context. One thing she taught me is that emotions are mostly fleeting. They wash over you. If you sit with them eventually they move into other things. Its the uncomfortableness of those emotions which is unsettling and can provoke activity which may or maynot be helpful.
One thing that is on my mind is do i still relate to any of my old friends and does it matter? What do i do if the answer isnt the easy path? What about family members?
Nothing really solvable today...
I think it is really too early to tell some stuff.
For example i went back to work part time to see what i thought about it. I dont currently see it as lack of passion or drive but more work is in the place it should be. The culture of my workplace is another thing. I work in a male dominated probably old style environment and i knew even before bc that it wasnt a 100% good fit. I just dont know if current me really finds it a problem. I do work, they pay me and in between i dont really think much about it. This is very different to old me who worked 50+ hours a week, felt responsible for everything and wanted to do well.
There are some kid things going on and change is needed. Its causing me stress because old roles may not fit but they are still hard to shake off.
Im just not really sure who i am right now.
I may reach out to my life coach as i trust her. But although she is aware of my journey im not even sure she fits in the same context. One thing she taught me is that emotions are mostly fleeting. They wash over you. If you sit with them eventually they move into other things. Its the uncomfortableness of those emotions which is unsettling and can provoke activity which may or maynot be helpful.
One thing that is on my mind is do i still relate to any of my old friends and does it matter? What do i do if the answer isnt the easy path? What about family members?
Nothing really solvable today...