@Toni63
I haven’t had this experience which is just as well as I might have killed him! Most of the medical specialists I have encountered - and there’s been quite a few - have been intelligent and understanding. But statistically there have to be some people who shouldn’t actually be allowed near sentient beings and you have unfortunately encountered one of them. Your friends are right - do not allow this person to cause you one more second of grief. Your sense of distress is easy to comprehend but he’s done enough damage, no need to do more to yourself. Let it go, you deserve to enjoy your life not relive his stupidity. Best wishes.