Exactly @Sister, how do I live now? I fear drifting back into what I was doing before. But before what?? 'Normal' for me was such a long time ago, and as we know having cancer yourself changes so much about you and your life. I've got all this new life stuff going on, and to ignore what's happened to me is pointless, because it can't be ignored, and stupid, because if nothing else we are the sum of our experiences. I don't want cancer to define me, but I don't want the experience to go to waste, kind of. I want to fold it into me, make it a part of me, to salvage something from the experience. I have to TRY to make a silk purse out of the sow's ear that life's delivered me. How indeed...
OMG I totally get the week to make the enquiry & booking thing. I just can't face that stuff to order anymore! I sort of have to work up to it. It's ridiculous! What is THAT about?!
I love your last paragraph. I have screenshotted it and filed for future reference. Mind you, I think 10,000 failures from this point would kill me. We've gotta have a win at some point, don't we?! NED is a good place to start. I hope we can build from here. And that you can get your click back. K xox