So sorry to see you join our select little group @onya .... the one no-one thought they'd ever join! Specially with an earlier recurrence :( Yes, the yearly checkups are quite confronting, aren't they?
Have you considered whether to have reconstruction yet, or will you remain 'flat'?
If you'd like to chat with others who've had double mastectomies - you might like to consider joining the 2 surgery 'private groups' - then you'll get insight into both types of surgery and can ask questions and even see before & after pics.
Choosing Reconstruction
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/group/1-choosing-breast-reconstruction ; and/or
Remaining Flat
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/group/29-flat-chat-no-breast-reconstructionTake care & ask any questions that you like - there are no 'silly questions' xx
In the mean time, I've just done a search on 'prophylactic' - and you may like to read some of these posts:
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/search?domain=all_content&query=prophylactic&sort=-dateInserted&scope=site&source=community