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Happiness? What's that?
I've been in therapy for many years (about 26 years on and off) for complex PTSD. I've tried talking, Gestalt, CBT, medication and I've even had Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS). The one that...
I find digging holes is beneficial. Unless it's too hot. Or too cold. Or too dry...
If it is a good day to dig I can become totally self absorbed. There is something about the rhythm of crowbar and shovel and rake which I find very soothing. Then there is the satisfaction of a new garden or a new fence or the transformation of a rough piece of land into a smooth area that will later become lawn (or at least mowable)
I try to conquer, or ignore, the frustration of being so much weaker than I used to be. It takes days to do what used to take hours and motivating myself to start is a problem. There are so many obstacles. But, eventually, the digging gets done.
Maybe that's a strange way to get happy, but it's quieter and less technical than my other source of satisfaction, the maintaining of the woodpile. What ever rings your bell--even if it's just a wee little jingle of a very small one. Mxx
If it is a good day to dig I can become totally self absorbed. There is something about the rhythm of crowbar and shovel and rake which I find very soothing. Then there is the satisfaction of a new garden or a new fence or the transformation of a rough piece of land into a smooth area that will later become lawn (or at least mowable)
I try to conquer, or ignore, the frustration of being so much weaker than I used to be. It takes days to do what used to take hours and motivating myself to start is a problem. There are so many obstacles. But, eventually, the digging gets done.
Maybe that's a strange way to get happy, but it's quieter and less technical than my other source of satisfaction, the maintaining of the woodpile. What ever rings your bell--even if it's just a wee little jingle of a very small one. Mxx